#loveLies oh lies,
Why must you try and make people believe your supposed lives,
Theres the trust that was once handed thrown away,
You try and try again, but no one believes the man that cried wolf anyway,
You’re far too consistant with words that were once said,
Believing everything thats expressed ,
turns into wasted air in the last,
Cause who’ll take your word once lies are said.
No one wants to guess an play,
Its reality anyway,
People take everyone for granted,
Even the ones that think their grounded.
We can be played like a deck of cards,
But in the end we’ll turn up like beautiful swans,
You may think you got us played,
But we’ll just figure it out along the way,
And in the end when you’re sad an alone,
You’ll know we were right all along.
So you might as well stop now,
And grow a pair of balls.
Stomach keeps fucking killing me, all i feel at the moment is way too many thoughts running through my brain. Unable to control the amount of thoughts racing. My chest starts to tighting, just trying to breathe and the thinking path i was just on, got lost in the middle of a foggy, dark forest. Seeing your breath in cold moon light in your own mind, trying to find that yellow brick road like Dorothy, or Alice trying to find her way around each part of Wonderland. But obviously those story ending come off to being easy. What they never really show is the struggle occurring in their minds. For once lets not look to what we see, but what we here from inside their view of thinking, because I’m pretty sure none of us get that reassuring bullshit that every-thing’s going to be okay, cause for one its not. Every movie may have a lesson and if thats so, wheres my movie. Cause im sure as damn well i’ve been through shit and everyone at some point should get rewarded for the good things that rarely happen to them because one day when no ones there is when that person wishes they were just shown that they mattered an no matter what mistakes were made, that one person by there side the whole time telling them that everything will get better at some point is probably the best thing to give a person .Company. & .Care. <3
Fuck being home alone by myself & without my boyfriend, or my mom for this matter. Cause everytime someone important to me leaves, i get stuck in a empty house with all my thoughts. the urge to rip my hair out, scream, cry etc.. This shit isn’t fun.. never was. Got meds. to help but do they? nope. Seriously so fucking fantastic, its unbelievable not to mention that I’m stressed as all hell. You know they give you helpful tips on how to keep yourself busy and honestly they don’t fuck’n work because you know in the end when your done, your thoughts will still be waiting for you to relax & start bugging at you like a swarm of bees.
I will love you until the end of time, when the days darken, and I’m all alone. When you text me telling me you love me or when you’re having a bad day. I will love you until the world explodes into a million pieces. Until my heart can no longer beat anymore because you mean everything to me. Words can’t explain all your feelings but they can add more promise into me always loving you. We may change, and thats okay as long as your by my side to hold my hand, hug, kiss, cuddle with me and just whisper to me that everything will be okay. Things won’t always be the same but as long as we keep on moving forward with the way we are everything can be gone through together. Loving you was one of the best decisions i had ever made. Its not because i have someone to call mine but i can call you my best friend that i can tell anything to, and you would understand and help me through it. You may have left to go home today, but I know for a fact you won’t leave my mind. No matter how many over thinking thoughts want to come through, I’ll just stop and think of you. <3 Babe, you are my everything, my heart, my soul, and my partner until the days go cold. I will put up with anything just to be with you no matter what your moods are, or how things are going that week, i will be there by your side, doing the same you do to me. I’ll care for you, try to make things better and help you until you smile. I’ll hold you, love you and cherish you for as long as possible. Like I said, our love is one thing, i will never take for granted. Why? Because you’re everything i’ve ever wanted. You’re perfect to me. I love you from the moon and back eight million times. Promise me you’ll never leave because i can promise you I’m not going anywhere. Just going to Love you with all my heart and give you everything you need, just so i can see you happy. <3